I couldn’t sleep so I decided to read a little scripture tonight and something about it really touched my heart and I felt like I needed to share it with everyone.
I’ve grown up in the “Bible Belt” of the United States. I’ve been in a church service every Sunday and Wednesday since I can remember. I went to church camp, read my bible, and prayed every night. And you know, something about it all felt very rehearsed. I’ve always struggled with feeling like I’ll never be good enough to get into heaven. It’s been a really hard thing for me to believe that I will make it into heaven because I never had an amazing testimony. I was raised in church and got baptized at a young age. I know that I believe in God and I am positive that Jesus Christ saved me from sin. I’m just worried because I tend to fall into the “luke warm” Christianity; Which is something that God doesn’t like. I tend to have a anti-social personality and I make up excuses for every reason not to do Christian outings, but I also pray every night, highly believe and rely on God for every decision of mine, but I struggle with expressing it to others. I’m not embarrassed of God, I would die for my Christian beliefs.
I guess I’m saying all of this in hopes that if anyone else feels the same way as me, that they’ll understand they’re not alone. I really hope everyone who reads this KNOWS that God LOVES you. He loves you so much. You are enough. All you need to do is have faith in him. If you struggle with acceptance and self-love, trust me you are not alone and you are loved.
I took my troubles to the Lord; I cried out to him and he answered my prayers.